Introducing Myself

My freshman year of highschool, I posted a story on my Snapchat where I expressed how frustrated I was over a boy. I titled that post “today’s tea talk”, just because I thought it was a funky name to use when talking about drama. But by my third post, I realized I had lots of thoughts and feelings I felt my peers related to. I started posting my thoughts on self love, body image, self respect and just about anything to make those around me feel empowered. I enjoyed receiving feedback about how the posts “made their day”. The posts became less of a gossip center and more like therapy. 

I know a bit about what it’s like being in therapy because I have been going for most of my life. I don’t want to come out and say that my life was or is awful because I go to therapy- but it was certainly difficult at times. I struggled with issues I will further write about, but it’s some I’m sure my audience can sympathize with. Eating disorders, feeling as though you’re valued solely based on appearance, not wanting to associate with gender roles, and figuring out what your voice looked like.  

I am still learning my voice today- still learning how to respect my boundaries, how to openly communicate my thoughts and feelings, how to love myself the way I demanded it from others. It’s a self journey, I hope you guys can figure it out with me and take this to learn more about yourself! 

Aside from all the serious stuff, I am mostly a fun person. I love to go on adventures, take spontaneous trips whether it’s planning a last minute flight or going on a drive with the music on blast! I am usually a private person, who tends to hide away my emotions, relationships and passions from others- but I have gotten to a place where I feel that vulnerability is not to be feared and honestly who cares. I am an imperfect person who has insecurities about her body (my hip dips being my biggest one), who has had issues with communication and attachment in her relationships, and one who may come out of something strong but had to be at fault first. I actually very much dislike when people think I am perfect because that concept does not exist considering everyone has their own things.  I would like to say I am a deep and independent person; someone who enjoys tough conversations, and really prefers to skip the small talk. A person who may try to be too independent at times, forgetting it’s okay to ask for help; forgetting I can let down my walls amongst other trusted individuals. Lastly I find that I am someone who enjoys learning about all their things- my potential faults, stuff I need to work on, stuff I am skilled at, and making those connections as to why I am the way I am (why I behaved the way I did). 

Fun facts about me include:

• I have a cat named Munch after a favorite t.v. series of mine, Law and Order SVU
• I graduated highschool early and attended college a year early
• I wear hearing aids in both sides of my ears but can still hear one speak when they’re not in my ears 
• I have a wide range of music taste, liking R&B (summer walker, and H.E.R), alternative (Coldplay, Adele, Beatles “older people music” haha), early 2000s songs (especially Drake and Rihanna) and maybe a small few of country songs 
• I enjoy thrift shopping and love when I tell someone my cute clothing was from Goodwill 
• I enjoy going to Target and imagining my future apartment, so basically interior design
• I enjoy photoshoots whether with an phone or my “professional” camera 
• I also like doing videography; mostly short videos of my trips
• I have a big family, on my moms side 4 older siblings and on my dads side 2 younger siblings 
• And yep you guessed it, I have a caffeine addiction!